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It's a pleasant Friday evening here. I'm very much looking forward to the arrival of the weekend. I'm not even employed, and I yearn for the weekend.

FUB called me today while I was watching Jeopardy! He called to discuss my search and give me some advice. I have to admit that his call was very reassuring. It's actually what I was looking for, although I didn't really know it. He didn't try to tie me down with "do this, do that" or this is what you need to do; rather, he gave me some suggestions and examples from his own life.

He even offered to listen, which is something that ole whitey d. has not been real good about; I feel like these past few days I've spent inefficiently pondering what I want to do with my life. Not really my life so much, but with my immediate future.

I'm torn between finding a job where I stay content with it and between doing something bold like starting my own business. Obviously, if I had my choice, I'd be starting my own business. The trouble, I find, is knowing what enterprise to undertake. Sure, I've got my list of things that I like to do, such as cooking and playing sports, but I struggle to know how to integrate those things into a legitimate business.

Then there is the part of me that tries to find the holes in the system. The part that looks for places to make money. Thats what it seems to be all about-- making money. It's really sad because my whole time growing up I told myself that I never wanted to be the money-hungry guy. Now, it seems that that's all I'm out for.

FUB reiterated that his motto is "Do what you love, and love what you do." As redundant as it sounds, it seems like good advice to follow. If that's the case, then I'm due to start a restaurant, bar, and a batting cage. All good things, in my opinion. It's too bad that the market for restaurants in Austin is seemingly saturated.

I would really love to start a restaurant in Minneapolis but it seems to be a very difficult and challenging task. I know it would get good marks from the family perspective, and perhaps that's justification enough. I just wish it wasn't so damn cold up there all the time. I really love the weather here in Austin!

Another problem that bothers me is that I don't feel like my head is working as well as it should. I feel like I rack my brain for the pithiest ideas. This is obviously very frustrating because I never manage to come up with much. I always seem just short of the most brilliant concept. To what do I attribute this? I cannot say.

This is especially true with regard to my book. I can't quite get a grasp on what I want it to be about. I want it to be captivating and entertaining but not a borrowed idea. This appears to be quite the challenge.

I will say this though. Despite being two months in to the employment search game, I feel about as close to zen as I ever have been. This is a strange realization just because I should be about as far as one would expect.

Today, while I was strumming my guitar, I finally sensed improvement. Not only improvement though, I sensed some skill, which is a first for me in any musical department. Never have I been talented in any musical sense other than band and song knowledge. From a technical standpoint, I've always known nill.

Well, I've attempted to record my thoughts for the day. I think I'm going to start attacking a meal for dinner. It's probably going to be chicken related, because thats always good. Chicken or chicken? Chicken, I guess.

Chick On!.