Mondayne

Ahoi hoi.

Today, more than any day, it has hit me that I'm going about my life in a directionless manner. I know what I want from a long term perspective, but I can't figure out how to get there in the short term. Man, I'm getting deep on myself.

This complaint relates directly to my jobsearch. I feel like I've lost touch with my job search. I don't know what I'm looking for anymore. I think at a very fundamental level, all I seek is decent pay and flexible hours. Wow- that's pretty sad.

I'm not gonna lie; I expected more out of myself at the age of 23. I never thought that I would have such a difficult time getting a job. It has become frustrating. It has become embarassing. It has become disheartening. I never would've guessed that it was going to be this difficult.

I think what I need to do is to focus on my priorities. I need to define them, first of all. I need to establish order to them. Then, I need to figure out how I am going to achieve them. I'm really having issues maintaining focus on things when I can get distracted so easily. I, Patrick "Hobo" Davis, am getting distracted at my own game. I always prided myself on my ability to get work done under intense pressure and adversity.

And look at me now: I sit here typing on this blog to whom? I don't know. About what? Who the hell knows. It's become an ugly part of my life. I like to think that there is always some good that can come out of the bad. It's hard to see where that fits in for me when my immediate future is looking so bleak.

I think this is true: I need to start my own business, and I need to raise some capital in order to do so. Ideas for business are seemingly a dime a dozen. I need to start writing more things down, and I need to start acting instead of just whining about it.

Also, today, Monday, November 7, 2005, I am beginning my career as an amatuer writer. I intend to write a semi-autobiographical book. Little more can be said before I establish the outline for the novel. I anticipate that it should be done by X-mas.

As soon as I finish entering this entry in to Hoblog, I am going to take the first steps to becoming a successful college graduate. So far, my track record for success post-graduate is minimal. It is the start of the week, and I am going to really take it up a notch. By weeks end, I intend to see a dramatic change in my own behavior.

For now, get some Chinese food and enjoy the greasy deliciousness. I'm off to go do unpaid, personal work for a while.

Chee Ears.